As I have been looking over my blog lately, I started thinking about the number of posts that I seem to have made about myself. Granted, this is my blog, so that makes sense. However, this got me thinking about whether or not I have made me an idol in my writing. I should hope I haven't, but the sinful flesh always has ulterior motives, including hoping that I increase those who read my blog and make myself popular. So, for that, I should be in repentance and realize I am at God's mercy. However, though my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, this isn't a bad thing because my baptism washed me in Jesus' blood and God sees Christ when He looks at me. At God's mercy means I am forgiven and saved!
However, this did make me think further. I do not search out of guilt but out of curiousity. Can a disorder be an idol? Lots of times we think about an idol being something that we believe in that will save us. Be it money or a false god, the idol we have gives us something that we would otherwise lack. But a disorder? It's a burden, a cross, a hardship. It's hardly desirable and can do nothing but bring torment and harshness. But, if it is at the center of one's being, if it is at the center of everything that a person does, if it is at the core of how a person defines themselves, could it then be an idol?
An interesting thought. I would love feedback (and not just to increase readers! ;))
This may be a natural rationalization, but I'm thinking that you probably don't have to worry about it too much if it's not getting in the way of your other vocations.
ReplyDeleteI am not sure if I am wondering for myself or if it is just a thought that crossed my mind that made me wonder. We tend to think of idols that we put up instead of Christ as things that we think will give us the goals we desire. Disorders don't quite fit that thought, and yet, I wonder if they can become idols.
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